The 'L' Words
So what do you show them when you take them home,
These clueless girls you find at rock bottom.
Do they see how really sad you are?

Or is it just me that sees behind your dead eyes
Loser, I heard they called you.
Loser, I must agree.

So, it was me all along, was it? Poisoning you?
You would have been much better off
Without me around your neck.
Liar, I say now.
Liar, your new truth.

If I had just had the confidence,

I would have known or at least not cared
That no woman can save you,
Only beer and a gun can release you.
Loser, I see it fits you.
Loser, I got away.

You lost that smarmy look on your face,
And took all my fun away.
I came over to wipe it off for you,
But you beat yourself pathetic
While I got my life together.
Now that I have the time to torture you,
To look in your little boy eyes I
Just lose my vengeful desire.
I could never beat a broken beast.

Leave on Time
we never leave on time
no matter what
i can leave on time - alone
not him
not us
and it's not his fault
i dawdle with him
i wait for the nagging
i pussyfoot around
we never leave on time

A Lick And A Promise
So what if you had been home more?
Through all of those 'developmental' years,
Sitting home waiting, maybe even baking.
I said: "What if?"
Would I have grown up more secure,
Do you think? Or suffered less
At the hands of others?
Probably not, they weren't strangers.
Better yet this query:
What parts of me might I have lost?
Would my desperate will to survive
Still be such a driving part of what I am?
Late as is was in a appearing,
Still, it serves me well.
No, don't dwell on it.
What I can do is thank you for
Helping me stay alive long enough
To want it for myself.
Maybe you're afraid I'll blame you,
Since you weren't perfect, but if
You had been, I shudder to
Think what kind of mess I'd be now.
I remember vividly and consistently that
The holidays were bright-shiny and the
Food on the table was all I ever
Needed and we all got out alive.
I love you now and I know that
Your being home would not have
Made any kind of real difference.
At least not for the better, not
When all is said and done.

little bunnies
the walls are screaming
pain i know too well
little pink bunnies tearing flesh
still there is no release
a slip and fall
right off the safe path
has led you here where
the walls are screaming
the passion of hatred
brings terrors to the rim
little blue bunnies chewing bone
we find no escape
a slight straying
from our karma
has led us here into
the passion of hatred

Little Girl's Promises
I promise to swim in the rage.
I swear to cling to my hate.
I will never fully release my anger.
I will use my weapons on myself.
I won't expect anyone to understand.
I promise not to scream in the quiet.
I swear, someday I'll dance on your grave.
I promise to eat myself alive.
I swear to remember everything.
I will always keep it inside.

I would never do anything to hurt you,
Daddy.

Lollipop Gurl
You would feed at the table of
Mythical unconditional love.
Squeezing into the pink princess costume.
Back away from the mirror.
Step smartly off the scale,
Cover up your sickly body; look into
Your empty eyes!
Lollipop gurl - Stick thin - Big head
What drives you?
Don't touch that - Poison - You know
It drowns you.
Rich bitch don't wanna eat?
Let me watch this pitiful feat
Of obsessive self control-will-guilt-bull
Maybe little gurl should cry.
A real emotion let go could imply
The true problem and let princess grow
Go on gurl, fly.
Lollipop gurl - Stick thin - Big head
What drives you?
Don't touch that - Poison - You know
It drowns you.

Lucy-Fur
I guess you knew.
Yeah, I'm pretty sure you knew.
You talked and talked to me.
And though I didn't then,
I understand it now.
I love you too.
You forgive me, I know.
I made the right decision.
You knew I did all I could.
Already I miss you, guy.
A big presence in my house.
It was good to know
You were here or you weren't.
Big Ol' Otis, dead and gone.
I love you too.
I'm sorry you hurt.
I wish I'd know sooner.
I hope you felt my love.
I hope you took it with you.

Luna
Night drops her pants to
Reveal her most coveted
Prize: Bella Luna.